Well, I was never really lost. Anyone could have found me via the cell phone, but I have been ignoring most things except for work and church. I am gearing up for a mad two weeks of travel. I don't even want to list where I will be; it makes me more tired then I already am. By this time in two weeks, I would have been in 5 states and have one day between my travels - next Sunday. Sigh...................
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I am going "home" this whole next week because of week long meetings and presentations at the corporate office. I wrote an email to someone this week; the gist of it was that where I am now is more of a home that I have ever felt. So when I say I am going home, it is a strange feeling. I already feel out of place when I return to visit my parents; it is not anything that they have done. It is just that where I am is where the Lord wants me. The peace of knowing this is is exactly where the Lord wants me is overwhelming. I have never felt so sure of something before. Most people think this is strange; I think it is wonderful blessing from the Lord.
Sleep is not coming easy to me. This is not something that is really new for me. I have never been a great sleeper and have always envied those who could. But lately it has been worse. I am getting to bed later, waking up several times during the night and being wide awake at 2 am. It is so frustrating to wake up feeling worse then you did when you finally feel asleep.
On a side note, I am being introduced into the world of high school again. I am now the Jr. High School teacher at church and a small group leader for youth group on Wednesday nights. As I was watching all the jr. and sr. high school kids on Wednesday, an impression stayed in my mind permanently....."I am so old." The sad thing; I look so much younger then most of these kids.
Please pray for a brother in Christ, Dave. I know him only through a friend of mine.
Three weeks ago he lost his wife and four year old daughter in a housefire in Ellwood City, PA. His infant daughter, Sophie, has been in ICU since then and died today. Dave is 24 years old.
I have been watching many posts on both Covblogs and Chattablogs about the upcoming election - I must say that I am really disappointed with the views that I see many people holding to.
I will start out saying that I don't think that Bush has been the perfect president. There are things that have happened in the past four years that have concerned me. However, we, as a nation, espically those that are Christians, should be very grateful that we have a president who seeks out the glory of God.
Second, I really do not understand people who are going to vote via third party. I understand that some of these men hold to certain standards and ways of thinking that you also strongly believe. But, think about it this way, every vote that you give the conservative third party is a vote that you are taking away from Bush.
We need all the votes for Bush that we can. Yes, he has not been a perfect president, but I would rather have a Christian president then someone who does not profess Christ!
I received a phone call from my brother last Wednesday saying, "I only have two minutes to talk; I just called to say I love you." This is a phone call that I will always cherish and remember.
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I praise God everyday for my two younger brothers and the close knit relationship we have. Many people have commented on us and wondered why we are so close. It even puzzles us; we are all so different from one another, which tends to be the first comment out of everyone's mouth when they meet Josh. " You too are SO different." Yes, we know that.
The relationships between siblings is so special. J and I are only 19 months apart, so we share a lot of the same memories growing up. A and I are 9 years apart; for the longest time we had this mother son relationship, mostly due to the age gap. Now, we are close friends who talk on the phone every week discussing his life, now that I am not there to see and witness it. And, I am quite proud that I am known as his cool older sister by much of his friends.
So letting go of Josh to the other side of the world has been difficult. I think that I grieve the time that we are apart more then the fact that he may be harmed or hurt. As the weeks go by, it is a phone call like the one that I received that gives me the strength to keep moving on.
Nothing puts a smile on my face, like coming home last night and seeing my order of Greyfriar's waiting for me!!
letting the phone ring and not feeling guilty that you did not answer it.
Last night was the first night in a long time that I made it to poker. The night was strange overall. Within 20 minutes, I won a hand that someone played all in, after I won, she quickly got up and just left. Leaving the rest of the table and I wondering "What happened?". It was by far an extremely awkard moment.
I had ups and downs; towards the middle of the night, I was down, a lot. But, somehow, I got a second wind and actually started getting decent cards. When I left, I walked out with being up $77 for the night. Needless to say, I made a few of the guys extremely upset, espically one of them.
I am not too sure what to think of all of it. Every week, most of these guys loose their money to other players, but they do not react the same way. So, is it because they are loosing to a girl that makes it more painful. I guess one of them offended me; I really did not appreciate his choice of words that came out when I beat his hand. Hey, it is a game and there is a certain amount of pride, but lets treat everyone decently!
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A, if you are reading this, lets start a new literature anology of our card playing!
For about five months, my friend L and I have been planning to go to Orlando for Labor Day weekend. Well, we are no longer going per the presence of Frances.
I have not had any vacation since last Christmas, and, strangly, taking time off for holidays and family really does not mean relaxation. So, the sunsuit, sunscreen and beach bag have sadly gone back into the closet.
So, I will be off to B'ham this weekend to see a dear friend & soul mate. I am in total need of relaxation ~ a time off of work, which is too busy, and a break from the emotions of last week. If I stay here, I will work, which is the last thing that I need to do.
My plan this weekend: sleep, enjoy great fellowship, and reading A Tree Grows in Brooklyn. My blackberry and cell phone will go unanswered until Tuesday morning!!!